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So many times I dread clothes shopping, knowing chances are when I leave it might be with one piece of new clothing if that much. There’s hardly anything my size, and the few things that are are just horrible looking.
Then I see this really cute dress.. perhaps the cutest dress I have ever seen, but it’s so tiny, no wonder it hasn’t sold. no grown woman could fit in that. Girls around here aren’t that thin..
Then it hits me, even if I lost all my weight, I still wouldn’t be able to fit in any of the clothes I like.. because underneath all this fat is a body that still looks like a giant compared to other girls.
I cut my hair today, and went to take a picture of it.. and I couldn’t stand looking at myself. It’s just so.. hideous. This giant nose, these small, close together eyes, the clown lips.. and even if my face wasn’t round and chubby, it would still be ugly as hell.
There’s just no making myself look better.
Either be fat and ugly, or loose the weight and still a giant and ugly.
I know a lot of people are going to say “It’s about being healthy, not about looking good.”
Healthy or not, I’ll still feel horrible about myself.
Eek..
I haven’t weighed myself at all over the holidays..
I’m honestly scared to. The last thing I want to do is look at the scale and have it tell me that I gained 20 lbs back.
With the I haven’t really left the house much. I work even told me not to come in for a whole week because the roads were too bad.
Then having Christmas with my grandparents, I felt bad when I’m the only one in the family who likes pumpkin pie and my granny comes out with a big happy smile, holding the pie, and saying “I made this one just for you because I know how much you love it!”
XoX
I’m feeling so negative right now. I think back to that Disney movie Halloween Town, the scene where they’re trying to get sweat from an overweight ghost and they lock him in a sweat box with the heat turned all the way up. Then when he finally gets out, he is so thin.. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT.
Oh yeah, I messed up my back the other night again. Yipee! :D
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12-9-2011
I got on the scale for the first time today.. and honestly I’m a little skeptical.
A week ago it said I was 394…
Today, it says 384.
Is that even real or is the scale just messing with me?!?
My clothes don’t feel any different on me, so??
I’ll put up a picture after the laundry is done to see if there’s any difference.
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Ugh.
TEN HOURS STRAIGHT AT WORK.
I work a desk job.
That much sitting is not good. Especially when trying to be more active.
Advice, anyone?
skinny-clothes-please asked: I think it's amazing that you are starting this weight loss journey with all the wonderful people on tumblr. It truly is inspirational and helpful and motivational. I can't wait to see your progress :). If you ever need support don't hesitate to talk to me.
Thank you so much. I’m excited to be doing this. I’ve seen how motivated people get on Tumblr and though it’s not even been a week yet, every time I come on here and look at the posts, it inspires me more and more to make this happen. I hope the both of you do well! ^-^
It’s a snowday!!
I don’t even know if I’ll make it to work.. I kinda hope I don’t have to. I only work two hours a day.. snow is everywhere.. the roads are icy.. my truck decided to break down yesterday, and I doubt the car will make it out of the driveway.
-exercise for the day PLAYING IN SNOW WITH THE DOGS<3
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12-1-11
I know, I know, it’s not the first of December.. Actually, Right as I was getting prepared to start this, the day went hectic, so I’m starting it now, on the SECOND of december.
I am female, twenty-three(23) years old, five foot eleven inches(5’11”),and I am three hundred and ninety-five pounds(395lbs).
My ultimate goal is to be 150lbs, and my mini goal for now is to be 345 in 146 days. That would be fifty pounds lost by my birthday in April.
Here are the pictures I took of myself yesterday. Lack of arms and legs in there due to holding the camera, but you can still see how the fat on my arm hangs.. Ugh.
